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Jun. 29th, 2007 06:27 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
virtuoso_magic[the writing is scrawled]
[Filter: Noel]
Yes I know youre dead. And I know you cant read this. Im still not a fool dearest. But I really dont have anyone else to talk to who understands. That idiot Elliot would try to but he wasnt there. Only you and I were there. I suppose this is really just a private filter with some idiotic delusion but I think I deserve some.
It doesnt hurt as much it was terrible for the first few days but its nearly been a week now. Since you died. That part hurts as much as ever of course and dont you dare laugh at me for waiting until you were dead to get sentimental on you not a word. Still hurts to write a bit so forgive my being lazy but its not so bad anymore. Taking good care of me they dont want me to die isnt that ironic. Theyre taking me back to Rhia and they want me alive.
I want to die. Not like before not because I deserve it just because I havent got a thing to live for anymore with you gone you were the only one who could save me and dont feel guilty because you did your best. Right until the end. Oh Noel.
The soliders here are very gentle with me aside from the tongue cutting and the arrows all over me. Cant forgive them for killing you but I dont think theyre bad people not really. Theyre following orders from this psychopath. I think his name is Asher thats what theyre calling him. I think the men all know hes insane and they hate him but they have no choice yet Lord Craig must have hired him without knowing just what he is. Or maybe he did know hah. Im a murderer after all I dont deserve better. But I think they feel sorry for me tongueless and alone.
I just want to die but I have to keep moving how awful is that. Cant even kill myself Im watched too closely. Bound hand and foot and half carried for the most part. Cant speak. He let me keep my journal probably cant see the harm in it and who could blame him. I havent got anyone at all.
I miss you.
[Filter: Noel]
Yes I know youre dead. And I know you cant read this. Im still not a fool dearest. But I really dont have anyone else to talk to who understands. That idiot Elliot would try to but he wasnt there. Only you and I were there. I suppose this is really just a private filter with some idiotic delusion but I think I deserve some.
It doesnt hurt as much it was terrible for the first few days but its nearly been a week now. Since you died. That part hurts as much as ever of course and dont you dare laugh at me for waiting until you were dead to get sentimental on you not a word. Still hurts to write a bit so forgive my being lazy but its not so bad anymore. Taking good care of me they dont want me to die isnt that ironic. Theyre taking me back to Rhia and they want me alive.
I want to die. Not like before not because I deserve it just because I havent got a thing to live for anymore with you gone you were the only one who could save me and dont feel guilty because you did your best. Right until the end. Oh Noel.
The soliders here are very gentle with me aside from the tongue cutting and the arrows all over me. Cant forgive them for killing you but I dont think theyre bad people not really. Theyre following orders from this psychopath. I think his name is Asher thats what theyre calling him. I think the men all know hes insane and they hate him but they have no choice yet Lord Craig must have hired him without knowing just what he is. Or maybe he did know hah. Im a murderer after all I dont deserve better. But I think they feel sorry for me tongueless and alone.
I just want to die but I have to keep moving how awful is that. Cant even kill myself Im watched too closely. Bound hand and foot and half carried for the most part. Cant speak. He let me keep my journal probably cant see the harm in it and who could blame him. I havent got anyone at all.
I miss you.
